We got rid of case worker from hell, and got the new case worker. She's wicked nice!
So physical therapy is finally scheduled and approved and we are working on it. My first session came up and I'm all nervous. If you've never done physical therapy your basically paying someone to tell you how to move your body to put you in some pain to get out of pain.
Least that's what it's always been for me!
So I get in there. The woman was wicked short. I was like, gosh- maybe our personalities don't click. Like my first PT when I started out- we'd talk about our kids. Lots and lots of kid talk.
Well we get through the formalities- of what my job entailed and what I can and can't do and she checks my muscles and then has me lay on my stomach. And then she "manually mobilizes" my back, my spine. The joints in my spine.
And the only words that I can use to describe the sensation was "fucking hell"
Now I'm sure she's done this dozens of times, I was sure she knew what she was doing. Looking back I now have better perspective of the situation.
Those first few hours after she "manually mobilized" my back was awful. She- we will call her the blonde one- said that I had done a good job of protecting my spine in the sense that I had little to no movement at all. So lean forward in your chair, or couch or wherever you are now and notice how your back curves with your lean. Mine, did not.
This is a result of me keeping myself out of pain (or at least trying to)
She as of this date has done it at least once a week since. I know that it has helped me get my spine moving again, but it has not helped with the pain. In fact since starting PT that woman has put me in the most pain of the last 6 months. Its been awful.
I think the most striking and shocking thing about the first, of now to physical therapists is that the first was all "I dont know what to do with you, you've had this injury so long I'm not sure what we can fix" Note to anyone who works in the medical field: don't say this to your patients.
I mean I questioned her when she snipped at me during our initial exam, but once she said that everything else was suspect. The Blonde One, is now just one more thing that got in my way. Pre-PT my pain had gotten down to a 4/5 with medication (down from a 6/7) and then I saw her and first day I was back up there. I came down a bit, but still, it was *not* that good pain that you feel when you are building muscle.
The second appointment with her I tried to discuss the pain this is where I got the "I don't know" line and the "just keep going" line. I get that as a physical therapist she has people coming in who just dont want to get better. However I just wanted to be like "bitch, I'm a mom of two- I don't have time to not get better, I'm approaching my birthday, which will probably suck because I wanted to have my life back by then!" but she's clearly kid less and does not understand the "mom" mentality.
And literally just like that, that was my second appointment. A lot of her brushing me off and being very cold and distant. Almost like I was scum on her shoe because I wasn't some little old lady to bully.
Those first few hours after she "manually mobilized" my back was awful. She- we will call her the blonde one- said that I had done a good job of protecting my spine in the sense that I had little to no movement at all. So lean forward in your chair, or couch or wherever you are now and notice how your back curves with your lean. Mine, did not.
This is a result of me keeping myself out of pain (or at least trying to)
She as of this date has done it at least once a week since. I know that it has helped me get my spine moving again, but it has not helped with the pain. In fact since starting PT that woman has put me in the most pain of the last 6 months. Its been awful.
I think the most striking and shocking thing about the first, of now to physical therapists is that the first was all "I dont know what to do with you, you've had this injury so long I'm not sure what we can fix" Note to anyone who works in the medical field: don't say this to your patients.
I mean I questioned her when she snipped at me during our initial exam, but once she said that everything else was suspect. The Blonde One, is now just one more thing that got in my way. Pre-PT my pain had gotten down to a 4/5 with medication (down from a 6/7) and then I saw her and first day I was back up there. I came down a bit, but still, it was *not* that good pain that you feel when you are building muscle.
The second appointment with her I tried to discuss the pain this is where I got the "I don't know" line and the "just keep going" line. I get that as a physical therapist she has people coming in who just dont want to get better. However I just wanted to be like "bitch, I'm a mom of two- I don't have time to not get better, I'm approaching my birthday, which will probably suck because I wanted to have my life back by then!" but she's clearly kid less and does not understand the "mom" mentality.
And literally just like that, that was my second appointment. A lot of her brushing me off and being very cold and distant. Almost like I was scum on her shoe because I wasn't some little old lady to bully.
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