More of the same ole same ole.

I know you cant tell.. Its been a while.

In fact, I have another appointment in 2 days. This is the 'glory' of scheduling my posts in advance.

So for me, sitting here right now, its been almost 2 weeks since the case worker from hell incident. 1 week since a new one was assigned, and I have heard ZERO things from anyone. No physical therapy has been approved, nothing.

So what have I been doing?

Lots. Of. Nothing.

No extended sitting, no extended standing, no excessive lifting. Just a whole bunch of hanging around with my pain levels back up to a 6/7 after a month of them being in check.

This is where we get to the aggravating rant.

I want to avoid injections. Injections to me don't seam like a good fit for my condition which has been confirmed by a surgeon of the insurance companies choosing. WE HAD MY PAIN UNDER CONTROL FOR 4 WEEKS. And what did my medical team/insurance do? Nothing. Absolutely freaking nothing. I know what you're thinking "Insurance companies don't really care about you as a person" and I know that. But things were moving, we were working towards a solution, things were getting so. much. better. Then all of a sudden some tart comes in and fucks it all up.

Why me?

I really don't understand. I've said this so many times- when I first got hurt I thought I'd be back to work. But no, now I'm some cow sitting in my house drinking coffee attempting to stay awake (a side effect of this medication, that an this GOD AWFUL low grade headache I've had for 2 weeks) and at the verge of tears at all time because I feel like this pain is never going to go away.

We could have done something, We could have worked towards getting me back- but no. We squandered it. So now, in two days. I need to walk into that office and we need to reconfigure medications. We need someone on the ball because I'm wasting my life. I don't want to waste my life.

Mr Insurance Company- if you're reading this. Please don't waste my life. I just want to move on and get on with it. I want out from under you as much as you want me out from under you. I just want to live- please, please, please let me live.