Blogging Effects.

I started this blog at the idea of a good friend. Usually we talk about trains, our kids, husbands etc. but one day I complained that there were no resources for parents who suffer from long term or chronic pain. She encouraged me to write stuff down so that in the end maybe I can help people.

I'm going to have to discover the writer in me. I'm not always good at it and my thoughts get jumbled quickly. Please bear with me!

However- as I sit here I notice what pain has done to me. Since as early as I can remember I have sat on the floor cross legged. Never had an issue. As I sit here (in pain!) with my legs crossed they keep going numb. It's pretty painful in itself. Blogging thus becomes an issue. Sleeping is an actual issue as I think about it. My arms do the same things at night.

I suspect its because of the weight gain. If I read the weight from my last apt's notes right I've gained between 20-30 lbs since getting hurt. I'm not active anymore- in fact if I was told that I need to lay in bed all day to let everything heal- I would drive myself to insanity trying to make my body heal. However a medical professional told me to keep moving- so move I do only because I trust those who know more about me than I do.

The pro's to this is it gives me something to do late at night when I'm usually bored out of my mind laying in bed. I'm installing the blogger app and I will successfully blog from my phone!

I need connection and a place to dump my never ending thoughts on what is going on with me. My husband (as previously mentioned) is not all that happy with my condition. He has a hard time understanding a never ending pain. Today I had the misfortune of feeling like my spine was just going to snap and I was going to fall over. I TOTALLY understand that this physically cant happen- but the feeling had me freaked out most of the day- and he doesn't get that.

So her I'm dumpity dumping and there goes the feeling in my left foot again.