I did it, I'm doing it, I'm almost done.

I made it through church. I was frigidity but I did it!

I almost thought I wasn't going to be able to make it. I had to lay down after getting up because I was in so much pain. I declined going back to my in laws- I honestly don't think I could deal with my father in law right now. Instead some of my family are coming to visit and help with the kids. I guess the act of grace from my husband made him forget to take out all the trash before he left- but ce la vie?

The Big and I are now sitting in bed watching Vegimals Christmas. I'm trying to prepare for how we are going to go to our old house so we can do the signing. My Big is trying to get up under me. I feel like such a bitch telling him to stay on his pillow and not cuddle. Its so counter intuitive as a parent to tell him to get off me. I have to remind myself if I sacrifice my body now by letting him be all up on me than I will make things worse for both of us in the long run.

I've had increased constant pain for about 2 weeks now. I'm honestly not sure why. At first I thought it was the weather but that has proved wrong. With the clearing weather I thought things would get better but they have not. I now have pain into my hips. Like deep pain in my hips- am I moving wrong when walking? I'm not really sure what is causing it. However I know that my mobility is decreasing. We once could park at the far edge of church and I would be able to walk across the parking lot before I would feel fatigued at check in. Now Jimmy has to drop me off at the door and I'm still fatigued at check in.

Ugh. Another ding to mobility.

We are looking into investing for claws because if things fall on the floor I'm really, really screwed. I'm putting this one off because I have two small children in the house and I can foresee them taking them and leaving them on the floor- thus screwing me over.

Today I end mixed because I'm starting to see the alterations to my house I need. A stool to do my makeup, grabbers, drop off's etc. How long will this continue before I get the adequate help I need?